These are such hard choices. I need to be earning lots of money rapidly. I mean absurdly rapidly. So I am faced with choices: 1) waste my day way on the phone with the bureacrats trying to get more time to make good on my debts, 2) spend my day earning money, or 3) spend my day trying to find a job that pays a steady, predictable amount of money albeit less than I make in this unpredictable hell. Today I chose number 3 and have been on the phone with recruiters, sending emails, and filling out questionaires about my capabilities to try to get a job.
I have made some mistakes. I trusted too much. I gave too much and asked too little. I refused to let go off projects that should have been cut free. I would make any sacrifice right now to turn those mistakes around.