Reality Me

* worse yet. I haven’t put a keystroke toward the php work that should have been completedly already. Really, it should have been less than a day’s work.

* Computer’s are refusing to play nice. Can’t edit the word document that the recruiter needs.

A New Day!

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This Morning

* up at 7. Walking dog. Watching trash truck drive on past us (I’ve got to get them the $90 I owe!). Reading the paper (today’s cypher was ridiculuously easy). Breakfast (oatmeal). Getting the baby (new diaper and breakfast). Phone call from recruiter.

* Now trying to get word doc modified but MS Word is crashing. This is going to look bad to the recruiter.

* I am trying to run a website related to the Tennessee Lottery and am a year behind schedule. I comment that “I should have been collecting articles and putting them in a folder” and my wife responds “why!?” Does no one understand the research side of creating a successful business model? I could create a successful business model selling mudpies with a decent capital seed and the right amount of effort.

Last Night

* Took the brainbench test on CF 5 and scored 4.82 out of 5 which according to the results is better than 99 percent of people who took the test.

* 10:15-10:30 trying to get to the bedroom to watch a movie at 10:15 with the wife. This time is stoking the fire and preparing it for a long, low burn (the room is sooo much better now!), getting the kids settled and getting a snack.

* 10:30-midnight moview

* midnight to 1am reading–bout of insomnia. Had lots of energy but couldn’t focus it. Should have programmed all night.

* I’m wound like a watch spring right now. Wife wants me to watch a movie at 10:15 which I’d love to do but I’m so worn out that I just want to go lie down right now and sleep. I have to do this proficiency test for the recruiter and if I wait much longer I’ll be too tired and make silly mistakes. I need a job badly. The 19mth old seems to have a lump on her left breast and a persisting rash on her inner left thigh and I have no insurance to take her to the doctor with.

Explemplorary Chaos

Here’s the type of thing that most DINKS miss out on. I am trying to have some calming time to myself after a totally depressing day with some reading on Diaspora by Greg Egan and playing the guitar when the 7yr old and his friend tell me I am taking them to the store for snacks then the 13 yr old declares that he has dog poop on his shoe after walking the dog 15 minutes ago. That’s 15 minutes of tramping dog poop through the house. I’d like to require shoes be removed at the front door but I personally like keeping my shoes on.

* 10yr old dropped — nevermind.. I should quit trying. Should have gone to Memphis.

* between the blogging and the web programming my left wrist is taking a huge hit. Popping and hurting. Pulling out the weights.

* hungry. Getting some meclizine and some more coffee. I’m calmer now and need to supervise upstairs so the wife can have some calming time.

* I’m just causing problems upstairs. Going to retire down here, put on some headphones, and just work on the computer all day today. They can do without me for one day.

* Last night I got my Meclizine refilled. It is the generic form of Antivert used to treat dizziness. So I the pharmasist puts warning stickers on the documentation including “May cause dizziness.” I about died laughing.

* back hurts

* forgot to add in the “lousy father” report. Went upstairs this morning and the hall gate is open for the dog (a puppy that is staying for a day or two) to romp and chew up all kinds of things. The door to the 10yr old’s room (where the 19mth old sleeps until I can get on my feet enough to build an addition) is wide open. The 13 yr old and 7 yr old are playing ps2 in the 13yr old’s room. Without as much as a “good morning” I jump on them. The 13yr old should have brought down his medicine when he got up. (that was all he got) The 7yr old has been told repeatedly not to eat food on the furniture. He’s munch right out of the cereal box. And they aren’t supposed to have food in the bedrooms at all since we tried it and it didn’t work out. He left the gate open. And left the bedroom door open after “going in to check on the baby” (which is terribly sweet but if that door squeaks she wakes). Bad dad! bad dad! I had a 2nd voice in my head saying “back off” “its no big deal” “correct your tone” and after that initial instinctive “jump on them for this” I pulled in the reigns.

I have to learn “7 yr old boys have their brains turned off” and that our 13yr old is really a 7yr old in a big body.

A New Day!

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This Morning

* Up at 4am rearing to go but allowed myself to lie back down. Up again 7:45ish and have walked the dog and put fresh, but wet, wood on the fire.

Dream: Dreamed that some goofball kids were surveying my lot with very little care and that in doing so I lost 1/4 acre to the neighbor. While I was inspecting the markings, they were in the house (went in basement side where my son was playing ps2). Looked like grifters to me.

Dream: An earlier dream began with me trying to rappel down a dangerous cliff or building onto some railroad tracks. It went horrible wrong. The dream changed to be in some kind of building observatory. It was glass domed and on the glass some impossible distance about the earth was this strange object. It was raining. As we got closer, it turned out to be 3 large sea turtles on sitting on the outside of the glass. We were then attacked by aliens that had come to collect the turtles. Our group packs into an elevator and an alien gets one blue lazer shot off hitting a compatriot in the arm. Fortunately he is wearing a protective suit and it does nothing more than throw him backwards. — that’s enough. It goes on and there is much more detail but unless I’m going to turn it into a novel it is silly to continue.

Last Night

* Finished watching Chicago on DVD.

* read some more in Diaspora

* found a DEEEEP sleep afterwards

 

Today’s Goals: php/mysql (kill it), finances, clean house

* made a chicken pasta and a curry chicken for dinner (recipes to follow later)

* watched Chicago with wife and 7yr old fell asleep while spending some time with us. Good guy!

* Nite all!

State of me

Not dizzy (but Meclizine may be the reason); tired but know that I should put in a few hours on this computer. Overall, happy and mellow. But can flip that like a light switch to cranky and snappy.

* fire looks stable. I think the chill in the room is already gone. Off to get a cooking pot of water to help humidify the air.

* Woodstove lit. First time in 2 years. I cleaned it decently first. Now that’s a danger to the baby!