For 2 weeks I fretted over an incident. During this time, my blood pressure spiked 20 to 50 points higher than normal and remained there. My doctor and I discussed a medicine change but he suggested that I wait a couple of weeks first. Today my blood pressure registered the lowest since I started tracking it. I think clearly my blood pressure has far less to do with physiology and far more with a need to sun myself on the beach of some tropical island for 3 or 4 weeks.
Category: Health
Protected: Deep End
State of Me
I’m so stressed that I’ve maintained a headache for about two weeks. There needs to be some serious downtime in the near future.
I cannot get my inner voice to be silent. I wish I could turn off my brain.
Pivotal
I supposed yesterday was what some would deem a wake up call. And today, I am changed.
Hello hello
Is there anybody out there?
Past the point of no return
When you are still awake at 3:15 in the morning, you begin asking yourself stupid questions like, "I know I’ve been awake for 20 hours. Can I make it another 21 hours before going to sleep?"
What Motivates Us?
A day in the life of a juggler
My day resembles this:
Blowning the Brain Cloud Away
Eons ago I discovered nootropics and delved into the costly world of daily vitamins and cognitive enhancers. Age takes its toll on the body but stress takes its toll plus interest, penalties and fees. Some days I struggle with tip o’ the tongue syndrome where the word or thought is almost there but just does not want to coalesce or my head may feel fuzzy. The solution is to deal with the source of the stress. Therein lay a catch-22. So once again, I look toward nootropics to give me edge I seek. I’m starting with Ginko.
Exhausted
The level of exhaustion I’m experiencing right now is bizarre, inexplicable and almost beyond description. I don’t believe I’ve done anything to deserve to feel this tired. I’d like to rent a secluded cabin and just sleep for two days.
Chubby Dougie
(no…not that kind of chubby)
I saw a friend last night and exclaimed, “wow! You’ve lost, what, about 30 pounds?” He confirmed, “about that” which confirmed for me that my doctor is correct; I need to lose 30 pounds (about 2 stone). My friend’s secret? Eat less, exercise more.
Communicating something?
Forgot I’m having lunch with s recruiter today. Didn’t shave. Wore beat up tennis shoes. Not my best outfit. Need a haircut. Bathed two weeks ago. I’m thinking there’s something subconscious going on here.
State of Me
Staying a few steps ahead of the guys with the white coats.
Stress dreams have the best imagery
My dreams were so vivid and wacky last night that I suspect I’d fail a drug test this morning.
Not a pleasant awakening
Three nights ago, my left calf seized around 2am. It felt like my leg was tearing in half. The muscle is still sore today. Two nights ago, my right calf seized around the same time but I awoke quickly enough and managed to massage and relax the muscle sooner to avoid lingering pain. My wife thinks I’m pregnant.
