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Credit card companies are a bunch of pricks.

In Another poem

      Near to this

      Doug played a game.

Whoever Tells the secret

Of It’s meaning

Uses Mental facitilies

Looking

Deeper Than

      Others.

Euphoria

Xanadu Calls to the enlightened

People Of

Exceptional Mentality

Compensating Mastery of reading,

Thinking, Edification with

      Nice feelings

Distinguishing Them

Elevated

Above

Normal.

A New Day!

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This Morning

At midnight I decided I wanted to pull an all nighter. At 3:30am I woke with much energy and my wife sang with the Sirens to draw me back into bed. At 5:20am I woke with panic. At 6:10am I woke with total anxiety.

Today is going to be very hard.

私はトミーを誤って処置することによって私達の夕方を台無しにした。私はメモが私を停止しなかったように私が身に着けている宝石類の部分こととても弱かった。今夜肉体の喜び無し。通常この行動は2 から3 週間私を断ち切ることによって罰される。

In times of stressful situations

Never does these seem to be

Ends to the opportunities to do

Everything grows in importance

Dauntingly the tasks loom

Ambivalence takes hold

Sometimes I know what should be done

Most often I cannot move

A dull throbbing in my head

Louder and louder it groans

Lamenting my failures inside its echos

Sensibly I should pick anything

Using a simple task to overcome

Crushing the overwhelmed feeling

Caressing the wounded mind

Energizing the self to do more

Small success brings greater success

Success brings satisfaction

–DM 8/29/04

Helped a friend with some electrical issues. I like electrical work.

Returned home in hopes of getting some cleaning and programming done but all I could do is get the macintosh ready to hand over to the kids (must figure out how to backup the whole thing — roughly 2 gigs). I have a irrational attachment to it. It also appears that VirtuaGirl (WARNING! Adult content. Not safe for work. May have one popup.) is installed on it but so far only clothed girls have walked the desktop.

Cooked dinner and now sit here pondering the next move.

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This Morning

Morning plans altered greatly making me frustrated.

Tick Tock Tick Tock Clock Clock Clock.

Waaay too much to do in waaay too little time.

If I try to think about it all I’m bound to loose my mind.

Turn everything into a game. Stay sane.

Use your brain to get ahead. Work smarter not harder.

Do not be ashamed to ask for help.

You have given perhaps its your turn to receive.

Humility will not offer its hand.

Computer maintenance stage 1 done. Much more to do there.

MBNA offer to settle reduced from 50% to 40%.

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This Morning

Rough night last night.

Amy was so cute this morning. I need to record her doing this. She woke and started calling for her sister (from Sarah’s bed of course). “Seeer rah” “Seeer rAh!” then “NOooo AH” over and over. Never angry that no one replied. Noah usually saves her but he was caught up in the television.

I can’t get Amy to hug or kiss Noah. She used to. What happened?

I’m off to repair another computer. Have another couple to schedule after that.

Picture at Phlog

My comment to my brother’s blog regarding our great grandmother. I have been trying to think of a way to write about her, the correct story, the best memory. Dean prompts this:

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And round push button light switches that thunked when you pushed them. They were alluring.

I still remember the smell of the place. And the alcove between the living room and the kitchen where the toy chest was kept.

The 20 cats.

The wasp nest under the swing. Was you or I that got stung?

The bees in the fig tree that didn’t mind the boys climbing it.

The fresh figs.

The games of chase under the grape fine.

Choking on a lemon drop and hiding in a bedroom so no one would know.

The ditch and church on the other side.

Most of all, I remember the scratchy voice of that kind woman, her dark rimmed glasses, the wrinked face, the gray hair pulled back in a bun, a skinny frame but still gravity had pulled her mass downward trying to reshape her as a bell, her hands, and her cane.

Another call from Sears where they try to sound like they want to help me all the while trying to degrade me into paying something. “Don’t you have any income? How are you feeding your kids? You have to have income. Can’t they skip a meal so you can pay us?”

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This Morning

Woke at 3:30. Could not take the stench. Apparently the dog just had to go. She is trying for the papers and that is a good thing. So I cleaned up her mess and was wide awake thinking, “Productivity time!” Then I thought, I really should wait until 4 or 4:30 to go to the computer. Woke at 6am and stared at the clock until 6:07 when Noah came down to tell me it was time to get up. 8 more minutes of self torture for allowing myself to be seduced back into bed.

Today is to be all about drywall and electrical wiring at two different locations. This evening we will enjoy a meal with friends. I’m torn. We don’t get invited out much and when we do we have childcare issues. This is not a time to be dabbling in the luxuries of finer dining but this outing will be very healthy for Cathy and I mentally and we like the couple that has invited us out. I would like to grow our friendship.

Amy caught a huge burst of giddy energy just before she was supposed to be going to bed so she came down to our bed instead, lay down, and pulled the covers to her chin. Then the motor mouth started. It was amazing comversation. She was identifying everything in the room, going through body parts, identifying toys, and more. Then I got the brilliant idea to audblog it and she immediately went quiet. So this is almost 2 minutes of me prompting for dialog.

* Major electrical accomplish at friend’s house

* Had to cancel lunch date

* Computer returned to residential maintenance client

MBNA called while I was at the client’s and apparently thought that by being rude and yelling at me loudly that I would magically poop money and pay them something. Really, if they’d give me one more month I’m sure I could appease them.