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  • I tried

    I tried my best and it wasn’t good enough

  • “The People in Your Life” 

    In my head
    I’ve kept my old friends alive
    Some are dead and gone
    But in my head they live on

    Others are alive and well
    I laugh at the good times 
    That bonded us so well
    Yet they never call
    They’ve moved on

    Friends and family
    For whom I loved so dear
    And craved close relations
    Are nowhere near

    I know communications
    And relations
    Are a two way street
    I have not done my part

    Life gets busy
    Different paths pull us apart
    We don’t mean to stray
    Different priorities 
    Just make it that way

    Each of us has a role to play
    In other people’s lives
    May be just for a moment
    A passing in a line
    A kindness 
    Remembered a long time

    Maybe we were the brother
    They never had
    With trust shared deep
    And questions unasked

    Did you have a stronger influence
    On me than I had on you
    You made all the difference
    Did I ever thank you

    You are still present in my head
    I’m not sure
    What happened to you
    Are you still alive or dead

    We enter each other’s lives
    When we are needed
    We depart 
    When they need their freedom

    I will always love each of you
    In my head you live on
    Maybe the time has come
    To allow the past to pass on
    To make room for others
    Until they too
    Move on

    I hold a place for you
    In my heart
    Should you want or need
    We can restart

    And make memories anew
    With adventures ahead
    Not stuck in the past
    Just moving forward instead

    Bygone times brought us together
    Life drew us apart
    Future possibilities
    Exciting thoughts

    One day I hope to see you again
    My friend
    Should our time together be done
    Just know I love you
    We had so much fun!

  • Happy 25th Anniversary!

    Happy Anniversary Cathy! A quarter century of adventure! And so much more to come. I love you!

    Married - in Gatlinburg!

  • Procrastieating

    I want bacon
    Or maybe it’s just procrastination
    Hard to think
    While I salivate
    I salivate
    Because I procrastinate
    Now I procrastieat
    Bacon is what I need

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  • Neglected

    I love sharing stories and information. I love blogging. This theme is dated. The site is infected with malware that is showing ads unrealdet to me. Tiem to clearn things up. I cannot even see what I am typing so please pardon the typos.

    My life is broken. I have done terrible things. Time to return to reality! si

  • So you want to be a programmer?

    Software development is a lot like completing the Boston Marathon only to be yanked over to the train tracks and asked to fix the rail and getting it fixed just in time for the train to run you over then it jumps the tracks anyway and you have to get it back on the tracks before the next train to run you over hits the first train.

  • No reward without risk, right?

    I bought the ticket

    I am taking the ride.

    Hope I’m on the correct train.

  • Metric

    Anyone else enjoy converting Celsius to Fahrenheit in your head or is that just me?

  • Social media timeout

    This week, when I have the urge to social media, I’m instead forcing myself to open Seterra and quiz myself on world geography, practice a language, or practice Morse code. So far I’ve learned that if I ever leave the United States I’ll be pretty lost and I’m more likely to succeed ordering a taco in cw than Spanish.

  • Geography

    I’m studying world geography. Let’s just say there is no doubt I’m an American.

  • State of me

    I’d like to think I wasn’t always a dumbass but there isn’t a lot of evidence to support that assertion

  • Coming to terms

    At some point you just have to come to grips with the fact that you will never matter to others as much as they matter to you

  • Being the calm

    After all the chaos, I am returning to chanting

  • To those who want to help

    The outpouring of love and offers of assistance during Evan’s plight touches our hearts. The doctors are pleased with Evan’s progress but are having him stay another 24-48 hours. Evan is quite done with it all and would like to go home today.

    A good friend has been counseling me on accepting offers of help. He has encouraged me to publish my Buy Me a Coffee link.

    Our physical needs are met. I joked about needing a massage and someone has arranged that! Cathy wants our sidewalk finished so grab your shovels! 😉

    Evan and I were supposed to be taking this past week and next week to make repairs on his car for his return trip. A beloved friend has offered to get the car to a mechanic to make it roadworthy and assist with some of the cost of repairs. If you would like to lighten his burden or help with our unplanned travel expenses, please see the Buy Me a Coffee link below. Thank you all! Each of you have already helped us through this trying time.

    If you wish to help financially, this is my Buy Me a Coffee link: https://buymeacoffee.com/djuggler