Day: April 14, 2004

I’m not tired. I should stay up and bang keys. Instead I want to go to bed and watch tv with my wife.

I spent the afternoon fighting computer problems. My art machine seems to have lost its video card and my development box won’t open a word document without word crashing. My copy of Office 2003 which I was saving to install on a new box has vanished into this garbage pit of a desk (Alro Gurthrie would be proud). And my laptop is so slow I wonder how I ever accomplished anything in the past.

I took Noah to soccer practice. I really enjoy the time with Noah. I spent most of the time talking to a mother who’s son is a first timer. She sounded a whole like like Cathy and I talking about Noah. She also complimented Noah’s playing ability. Once again, evidence that Noah is just a normal all American 8 year old boy (8 next month).

My wife and I are in one of those marital disconnects right now. She needs to be left alone and I just want to be a bother. I wish I could lift the weight from her shoulders.

All of my computers are dying. I feel like I’m going with them.

Noise! Noise! Noise! It’s everywhere!

So I used to kayak, mountain bike, spelunk, rock climb, rapell, dangle my feet over the railings of tall parking garages and anything else for a thrill…the rush…adrenaline.(aka epinephrine). Now-a-days I get the same rush with a 15 minute powernap..I fall into a deep relaxing sleep then jump from the bed in a panic when I realize I should be doing something else. You can watch my heart pounding through my chest when it happens.

Amy has had me put on her socks and shoes. I see where this is going.

Amy is in fantastic spirits this morn! She is talkative and smiling and playful! She is currently feeding me her cereal. She has been entertaining herself. I think she enjoys the freedom of being able to wake up, get out of her bed, and play.

A New Day!

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This Morning

I am so paniced that I just don’t want to get up. I wanted to hide in bed all day.

Awoke at 3:45, 5 and 6:06.

Sarah and Noah are moving good today. Sarah was completely prepared by 6:44! Tommy is trying hard to stay in bed. I told Tommy that Amy is asleep in Sarah’s room and asked him to be extra quiet. So far he has made more noise than he normally does.

Yesterday/Last Night

I took Tommy to his psychologist group therapy appointment. Made several phone calls from there. The entire time I was having a problem relaxing and being calm. I ended up reading a book for a bit then getting into a great conversation about the school system and where our Aspie children will go in the 9th grade. Knox County Schools is completely unprepared to deal with our children.

Came home and prepared a preroasted chicken and corn on the cob for dinner. The wife went to a meeting. The kids were well behaved and cooperative despite Tommy’s upset at having to do his homework. After Cathy returned home we got the kids to bed and went downstairs for card games and television.