Author: djuggler

* disturbing noises upstairs – ignore ignore ignore

* taking 25 mg of meclizine. Not dizzy right now but anxiety is too high. Feel ill.

* calmed with some reading..well..didn’t calm far. Gave me time to think that “I need to feed both cats” “MUST cook today..need pineapple” “money” “balance books” and other todos

A New Day!

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This Morning

* Worked with the 7yr old on a spelling practice. Had he taken the test without practice it would have been his worst. He may still not fair well.

* Worked with the 10yr old on addition and subtraction of fractions, and improper fractions. I enjoy working with the kids.

state of being

* I am angry with myself. I’ve had some great domains relating to the Tennessee Lottery for a year. I could have been promoting them and had so much traffic to them by now (the first tickets go on sale in 5 days) that I would have been solicited by the commission in some way (lawsuit, partnership, payoff..whatever) or at least been making money in advertising sales. It may be too late to recover. I need to be working fulltime on it but that doesn’t make money plus my life doesn’t really permit it. I have to start sleeping less!

* On the positive side, I began my stretching exercises again today. Those make me feel great and help me find a meditative balance in my life.

today’s goals: Finish (completely) the php/mysql project that I started [hopefully receive payment before the 19th], work on personal lottery related website [this is also a training exercise to bring me up to speed with css and rss-my skillset is starting to feel aged to me], some kind of marketing effort [hmm. I should be specific.] table toppers to several businesses, call employment agency and turn down Memphis job (they will quit working with me..one more bridge on fire), COOK!

Last Night

* found sleep near midnight

* woke from deep sleep and jumped out of bed resulting in a dizzy spell so strong that it floored me (literally)

* overcame mysql problem. After learning how to define the user I realized I’d made a typo in the user name in the code. oops.

* need to rest my eyes. Wife is pissed at me. I — let’s just say I spoke out of line.

Yahoo! Making progress on the db design in mysql. Need to take a break. Miss wife.

good times

* took the 7yr old and the 10 yr old to Krispy Kreme for their great report card doughnuts. Teased them the whole trip saying I was dropping them off for an all night study session at the school “since you got such good grades and want to keep them good they are going to have you stay at the school studying math and spelling” I even went into the school parking lot. I kept prompting “but what would YOU do for an honor roll student” and asked the question many different ways. I was almost to Krispy Kreme before they figured it out.

bad times

* Was having a relaxing evening and watching Smallville with the wife and wanted to get my dinner but my carelessness knocked over an open container of apple sauce which hit the ground perfectly to cover me from head to toe. I was furious and really held it back but still yelled “who’s apple sauce am I wearing”. I resist any cursing but still questioned why open containers were in the fridge and the wife got mad and I feel like absolute crap. I thought I was going to pop a blood vessle in my head because of the mixed emotions but mostly anger towards myself for losing my temper. Now things are unbearably tense.

* That was completely embarassing. Ex-wife’s name on the paperwork and the in-laws paying the Nov, Dec and Jan mortgage payments. Add on another 2 grand that I need to repay to generous people. I look back at the manuals I’ve written and the planning and strategy tools I’ve built in the past and they were so well thought out and well done. I should not be here.

* in laws here to pay mortgage. Head pounding.

* Picked up 10 yr old at school. She’s having difficulty with addition and subtraction of fractions and about to go onto multiplication and division and I’m racking my brain to remember least common denominators and such.

Political If you haven’t, you should look at http://www.bushin30seconds.org/ and read George Orwell’s 1984

This afternoon has been quite an adventure.

* Went to the bank to deposit an insurance check. Balance still negative but account doesn’t get closed until the 19th so I still have a chance to save it.

* Went to Nature’s Pantry. Doc Bro bought some ear candles for me but the customer service guy couldn’t find them. He was the first rudeish person I’ve ever run across at Nature’s Pantry. I asked, “Could they be at the register?” To which he replied, “No. We wouldn’t do that.” Vmails to the Bro and wife.

* Office Depot to get a bound pad of paper for the 13 yr old’s school work and erasable coloring pencils. At the check-out, I notice a table set up with a sign “Free Blood Pressure Check” Just what the brother ordered! First numbers come in at 178/86. 2nd numbers 143/86 pulse 72. Oh I remember the days of a 58 pulse everytime!

* Coming out of Office Depot channel 8 WVLT interviews me, unshaven and not at my most literate, for a 5:30 report they are doing on whether or not unlimited long distance saves money. I gave good commentary but wasn’t minding any of my actorial training. I am and probably always will be a theatrical performer instead of on camera.

* Brother’s wife is on the phone when I am passing Nature’s Pantry again so we go in and speak with Michelle who says “Oh, it’s by the register” (remember, “we would never put it there”?) So I’m prepared to have my ears vaccuumed. Looking forward to it. Maybe my hearing will improve 🙂

* Passing Am South I stop for their promotion and get the kids some B-97 promotional items, sign up for $1000 give-a-away and turn down a free checking account and a chance to grab money out of their money booth.

* Back to work

* Pep Boys contacted to correct UPS debacle.

Careful with insuring packages

Pep Boys sells Dad a scooter for the 10 yr old’s Christmas. It accidentally gets shipped to his house (damaged) so he insures it and ships it here. Pep Boys agrees to take it back but it UPS ships it from here to Dad’s house then sends a letter explaining that the package had insufficient packing and therefore they weren’t responsible for the damage.

So! Why didn’t the sales clerk look at the package, the description, the weight, and the insured amount and decline to insure it. I thought that if you “insure” something that you are accepting the risk and contracting to pay if the risk happens. Double-check before you waste money insuring packages!

Student Loans

BLAST! The wife’s student loans went into default a while back during her divorce or something. I worked with the collection agency and we’ve paid $550 per month for the past year to get back on good terms. The end result would be getting to refinance the $45,000 remaining at today’s interest rates. We missed the very last payment and have until tomorrow to make it up by Western Union or we have to do the whole year again and won’t be able to refinance until after the next election (with more than likely higher interest rates). This rots!

* Been working hard. Must break for lunch and a run to the bank soon. Want to incorporate some marketing as I go but don’t want to suit up.