Category: Daily Life

Seems like I’m always craving things that are just outside my reach.

Amy very unhappy. I worry she is perhaps not well. This confounded approach to getting employed won’t have us insured through a regular company for at least 6 months which screws up major plans.

Amy just took another bad fall to the floor. If I get the job that I think I may, I’m installing carpet before the end of March.

Getting in gear and getting to work!

Amy helped me cook eggs for she and her mother. While cooking I got an unprompted pucker kiss! She is enjoying her eggs now and chatting up a storm. I really need to get minidisc microphone and do some recordings of her. I’ve only done one recording and the microphone wasn’t very good.



A good friend of mine once suggested that I record her once a week to tape (not video) then when she is about 2 you put the tape into one of those children’s tape players and he says its good for about 20 minutes of babysitting! I personally just enjoy listening to her voice develop.

Amy seems quite pleased with herself this morning.

I intentionally leave the television off in the mornings. Amy is now in her playhouse chatting and drawing and having a good time.

Baby up. Diaper changed. Amy (20 mths) really weepy for Mommy. Elmo toy singing “shake rattle and roll.” Elmo has made her happier. Let’s add some food and reading.

Got the kids off to school. Noah made certain to get his hair properly spiked. Couldn’t find the good gel but the cheap one seemed to work ok. Not sure that Sarah had any breakfast. With the baby still asleep I had to decide between getting right to work or cuddling with the wife in peace. I, probably wrongly, chose some calm time with the wife but my presence seemed to be disturbing her slumber and the panic worked its way back in. Grabbing breakfast and going to try to get some work done before the baby awakens.

A New Day!

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This Morning

Laid in bed and had a pretty decent panic attack. Anxiety still high but subsided. Got myself moving at 6:08 and stirred the kids by 6:20.

Last Night

Had the energy to work late but not the focus. By time I started to feel focused I didn’t have the energy. Watched The Guru with the wife then wasted time on the computer looking at useless websites until 1amish. Went to bed at 1:30.

Anger mostly subsided. Now I feel drained and overwhelmed by the incredible amount of tasks I wanted to accomplish this weekend that are left undone.

I now have to work on the tension between my wife and myself. Time to grovel. I just want to go to sleep.

I got retasked at a critical moment in my project. Now I’ve lost my light and am hosed.

Beautiful day shot to hell.