Category: Daily Life

* Got a call today from someone I haven’t talked to in 3 years. Good call. Of course, he needed something 🙂

* My chest feels hollow right now. Like my heart has stopped or is missing.

* Glasses fixed. The 13 yr old found some Dave N Buster screw drivers. Now I’m slipping into abvilance about what to do with today. I have to choose between cleaning, programming, wood splitting and automotive repair.

* Talking to the 13 yr old feels like such a waste of time sometimes. It’s like trying to shout in a vaccuum. No matter how much effort you put into it you words just aren’t heard.

I’m getting really angry with myself! I can’t stop myself from talking angerily to the 13 yr old.

* I feel like my day is ruined. The 13 yr old broke his glasses because he was “fiddling.” I can’t find my jeweler’s screwdrivers which are in a large red package and its beginning to tick me off. Before I even started looking for the screw drivers, the 13 yr old came out with wire wanting to fix them himself so I naturally yelled at him and upset him, the baby and myself.

* I guess my task today is going to be to clean all day long. It would be a worthwhile investment in time. It would make everyone saner around here.

A New Day!

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This Morning

* Awoke at 2am fire still going strong

* Baby started dropping toys from crib so I went to get her but by the time I got dressed she was crying to get out

* Proceeded to grouse at the 13 yr old for snacking on cheese while watching his movies. I was really more upset that he just left trash anywhere. The tightwad in me is upset that he chooses expense bad calories when we have less expensive better calorie snacks like rice cakes. I think I’ll show him the better snacks.

* Refueling the fire now

Last Night

* Decided to set the ambiance in the room with a couple of candles

* Had a beer and slept like a rock

This write up of the True New Zealand is very thought provoking since both my wife and I have thought “What a wonderful place it must be to live!”

* Decided to take the 13 yr old, the 20 mth old, the wife and myself to Old Navy and buy the kids some clothes. The 13 yr old of course stays in the car knowing that most shopping he finds boring and usually ends in disaster. I think he simply gets over stimulated by the crowds, the lights, the noise (particularly the noise), and entirely too much information to process at once. In this way, he and I are very similar. There are times that I just have to get away from that kind of environment.

* After shopping, (we forgot to go in the pet store) we headed to Texas Roadhouse to discover a 45-50 minute wait..this is Knoxville of course – land of more restaurants than people but somehow they are always a 45-50 minute wait..except for IHOP which had immediate seating and knows us by name. Not only KNOWS us by name but knows when the baby was born!

I am altogether too intolerant of the 13 yr old right now. Far too quick to call names and allow myself to be irritated by his presence.

Right now I feel hollow inside. I have that urge to do something but am lost as if I was in an enclosed stadium with the lights out and I’m looking for the key to get out.

* Just dropped a log on one of our wood chairs and dented the chair. I guess I should be grateful that it didn’t splinter the wood; at least I don’t have to take 3 hours out of my day to repair it..I just have to live with the constant reminder that I can’t do something as simple as carry a log without screwing up.

Read an article that the current thinking is that we use about .01 percent of our brain. I feel like I use .0001 of mine.