Category: Daily Life

* I’ve been reading Greg Egan’s Diaspora and am amused that I am understanding it so well. It is science fiction packed with science fact. I have just finished Alice in Quantumland by Robert Gilmore which explains Quantum Physics quite well. Fortunately (recognising this in great hindsight), I had a great science teacher in the 7th grade that imposed some of these lessons on us. I recommend both books but read Alice first–its a tough read.

   

Desires

At this exact moment I want to do:

– Go up on roof and inspect chimney myself so we can have a fire

– Get Tommy’s scooter out and fix it

– Get mad at scooter company for not returning my calls

– Work on php/mysql website

– Write detailed blog entry for this morning

– Add book references with my Amazon store to the blog

– Figure out why my eyes don’t seem to want to focus today

– Sand, patch, paste and finish gate repair upstairs

A New Day!

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This Morning

* rough start

* much movement and baby crying all around 7-7:30. Baby crying stopped so I hid under the covers (later to find that the 7yr old “rescued” the baby and was playing with her..very nice!)

* Got up again around 10 or 11 from a sleep of the dead

Last night

* sleep 10ish. Washed down 25mg meclizine with 1 Guinness

* Computer flipping out. Sorta appropriate

good karma

* Called the bank and although I have checks bouncing left and right it doesn’t sound like they are poised to close my account yet but I have to correct things quickly

* After turning down the Memphis job, another agency has called with a 3 mth contract in Nashville

I am such an ogre to the kids. I’ve got to change that.

* I’m working but I feel like I’m walking through waist deep mud.

* sound of screaming children could be in the music I’m listening to. I turned up the volume to drown them out and at regular intervals the screams–nevermind, that was definitely a child

* I’d kill to have my 2nd monitor back

* over tired 7 yr olds now fighting. I see the advantage of working at an office. My urge is to go upstairs and help.

* created visual aid to encourage the 13 yr old to Respective, Have a positive attitude and be productive. However, he only cares about himself and it won’t make a difference. He’s up there banging on the table again and acting retarded.

* 13 yr old now stomping on the floor directly above my head while I try to work. 19mth old awake.

* 13 yr old really trying hard to make us angry. Making noises, trying to irrate and engage us

* It’s done. I’ve finally achieved the possibility of a 4 day work week.. A long time goal and I have turned it down. The damage to the family would be far to great. I feel like an idiot.

* I feel horrible for losing my temper.

* Beef jerk on dehydrator

* Working on php/mysql – time to don the headphones

* 1 hour to decide on the 11mth contract. They’ve asked if I were to do a 12×4 (Mon-Thur) if that would make a difference. Crap crap crap! I could have a paycheck by next Friday.

* 9:27 wife still in bed with a migraine. I should be calling my client to say I’m done but I still have some solid work to do. Baby is unwatched. 13 yr old is trying to have a fight. I haven’t been able to bathe and get dressed. Sears has called and I uncomfortably wrote them a check for 2/7. Employment agency called and asked if I could do 12 hours a day Monday – Thursday to make the contract happen. * Proceeded to go upstairs and do battle with the 13yr old. I reverted to my old forceful ways and handled him wrongly. I’ve been doing so much better. I am very disappointed in myself. I pushed him into the bathroom causing him to scream and disturb the 7yr old and his friend, the baby staring in confusion, and wake the wife. He refused to do anything but sit on the floor screaming so I pushed his 170+ pounds half way into the tub and began watering his head down. I left and when I returned he still refused to make any move so I put him in the tub and turned the water on where he proceeded to simply sit and let the water cover his jeans. — I shouldn’t take my anger and frustration out on others. Yes, he was picking a fight since he woke up, had several times baited me with yelling and anger but I should have more tolerance. Turns out he is in a bad mood because the other kids have today off but he is being made to do schoolwork today since he really didn’t work this past week as hard as he should (and he has it pretty easy).