Reality Me

Good Feelings! Came to terms with one creditor yesterday and another today. Two monkies off my back!

Bad Feeligns! Must work like a mad dog to honor my end of the deals.

Really skunky again. Smelled it last night and stronger this morning.

A New Day!

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This Morning

I want at least 4 hours of programming each day. If that means I go without eatting or sleeping then I want those 4 hours!

Today can go a couple of different ways. I have an appointment at 11am that cannot be moved and I must be on time. The possibilities today center around computer maintenance, dry walling, computer programming, marketing, sales and invoicing (hmm. That should be pretty high up!). I get the distinct impression that my day will begin with phone support and I may end up downtown again. There is a PTA meeting at the school tonight.

Amy rises. Molly calls.

Today I roles got to play:

* Chauffeur

* Accountant

* Windows 2000 Administrator

* Wireless Network Engineer

* Fire Extinguisher Inspector

* Negotiator

* Pet Walker

* Poet

* Chef

I think chef ranks highest in my book.

I dance with the Devil.

My head spins and I grow faint.

The evil swells within me

And the weak shall receive the burden

       Of my wrath!

I commiserate for those who have fallen before me

And I commune with the Devil for I am stronger than He!

The Others were eatten, devoured by their lack of connivery

And here I feed. I eat with the Devil yet he devours me.

My anger lashes out! The Devil hides my fear.

My skin crawls. The Devil shows my muscles rippling.

I shall weep! The Devil gives me no tears.

I break. And the Devil smiles for He is stronger than Me.

-DM 8/30/04

我做了成交。

I sure could use 345 miracles.

Credit card companies are a bunch of pricks.

In Another poem

      Near to this

      Doug played a game.

Whoever Tells the secret

Of It’s meaning

Uses Mental facitilies

Looking

Deeper Than

      Others.

Euphoria

Xanadu Calls to the enlightened

People Of

Exceptional Mentality

Compensating Mastery of reading,

Thinking, Edification with

      Nice feelings

Distinguishing Them

Elevated

Above

Normal.

A New Day!

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This Morning

At midnight I decided I wanted to pull an all nighter. At 3:30am I woke with much energy and my wife sang with the Sirens to draw me back into bed. At 5:20am I woke with panic. At 6:10am I woke with total anxiety.

Today is going to be very hard.

私はトミーを誤って処置することによって私達の夕方を台無しにした。私はメモが私を停止しなかったように私が身に着けている宝石類の部分こととても弱かった。今夜肉体の喜び無し。通常この行動は2 から3 週間私を断ち切ることによって罰される。

In times of stressful situations

Never does these seem to be

Ends to the opportunities to do

Everything grows in importance

Dauntingly the tasks loom

Ambivalence takes hold

Sometimes I know what should be done

Most often I cannot move

A dull throbbing in my head

Louder and louder it groans

Lamenting my failures inside its echos

Sensibly I should pick anything

Using a simple task to overcome

Crushing the overwhelmed feeling

Caressing the wounded mind

Energizing the self to do more

Small success brings greater success

Success brings satisfaction

–DM 8/29/04

Helped a friend with some electrical issues. I like electrical work.

Returned home in hopes of getting some cleaning and programming done but all I could do is get the macintosh ready to hand over to the kids (must figure out how to backup the whole thing — roughly 2 gigs). I have a irrational attachment to it. It also appears that VirtuaGirl (WARNING! Adult content. Not safe for work. May have one popup.) is installed on it but so far only clothed girls have walked the desktop.

Cooked dinner and now sit here pondering the next move.

A New Day!

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This Morning

Morning plans altered greatly making me frustrated.

Tick Tock Tick Tock Clock Clock Clock.

Waaay too much to do in waaay too little time.

If I try to think about it all I’m bound to loose my mind.

Turn everything into a game. Stay sane.

Use your brain to get ahead. Work smarter not harder.

Do not be ashamed to ask for help.

You have given perhaps its your turn to receive.

Humility will not offer its hand.

Computer maintenance stage 1 done. Much more to do there.

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