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Poem – Water Down the Hill

Water flows downhill

Enjoying Nature’s beauty

As it goes

Never trying to return

Up the mountain

To revisit its past.

Ever accepting of its course

Destiny offers little choice

Other than to decide its distance

From the shore.

Perhaps to eddy is allowed

But not acccepted by the main stream crowd.

“We rush down. Why do you wait?”

“Do you not ponder from which we came?”

“Do you wish to go upstream? You are insane!”

“Do you remember sites of yesterday?”

“Do you not see the things yet to be?”

Try, try as it might

The water cannot win

The upstream fight.

Tis unnatural and stressful

To go against the flow

Better to accept one’s path

Enjoy it! And conserve strength

Not for the impossible

But for that occasional tendency

To be separate from the main current.

Not until the heavens

Take it up into the sky

Does the water get rebirthed

With an opportunity to live again

And be baptised within its own rain.

-copyright © 2004 Doug McCaughan.

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A New Day!

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This Morning

Woke this morning at 5:49 feeling pretty good. Went back to sleep immediately and woke at 7:30 in sheer fear and panic.

I walked the dog hoping to calm and it helped. Bonus that she actually did her business outside. I found urine in her cage this morning so this theory that dogs never go in their cages is wrong. Of course, she does accidents when she gets excited so that could have been what the cage was about.

Time to split time between programming, sales and job hunting.

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Applying for school



Today I made a choice to get back into a BS degree program that will take from 2-4 years. This will require a lot of work on my part as well as my family’s part. I am enthused but need to return to UT to see if there is a faster solution with them.

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This Morning

I woke at 5am! Wide awake! Having gone to bed near 1am. Then went back to sleep until 7, ugh.

I am T totally tripped this morning but doing my best to stay calm. This day needs to be so much more than it will be. I need sales! I’d kill for one person working for me right now. I could only image what it would be like to have 2 people working for me again!

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Noah’s ride

So Noah calls me while I’m on the road, “I need a ride to my friend’s house.” My reply, “Noah, I need to make a phoen call and call you right back.” Hang up. Noah to Mom, “Dad is busy and told me to see if my friend can come get me.” Dad calls his next stop to find out he is too late to apply anyway and will have to make it tomorrow. Dad calls home. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Hmm. Dad thinks, “Noah must be on the phone talking to his friend and unaware of how to answer call waiting.” Reminder to self: Teach the kids about call waiting. Dad calls line 2. Tommy answers, “Hello?” Dad, “Tommy are you also on line 1?” T, “Yeah. I saw you call.” Dad, “So why didn’t you answer?” Tommy, “Because I can’t have two calls on the same line at the same time.” Dad explains call waiting and asks that Tommy tell Noah that I’ll pick him up shortly.

nota bene: When I called back a few minutes later Tommy properly used call waiting! Progress!

So I ask Noah, “Are you ready to go?” He says, “All ready!” and heads out. Amy cheerfully chimes, “Baby is all ready!” and starts to whimper by the door when no one immediately comes to let her out. I decide to take her, in diaper only, along to drop Noah off. We arrive at his friend’s house and since I think it would be improper to drop and run I get Amy out and walk with Noah to the front door. I confirm his pickup time and Amy and I return to the car. Once in her seat she arches her back, turns on the tears and screams for Noah. I can’t force her into the seat to save my life. All good bribes are absent from the car so I close the door and go to the driver’s seat to turn on the a/c. Then I get in the backseat with her and sit to wait her out. Just as she calms and is ready to be buckled, the boys come running out.

As I frantically buckle the toddler, Noah opens the door and asks, “Can you take us down to the store to buy cups so we can sell snow cones?” I’m flabbergasted. Normally I’d do this in a heartbeat. However, I can’t really afford the cups but am embarassed to say so instead I jump to “I have stuff I need to be doing at the house” and “the baby is unclothed and will have another tantrum” “sorry guys.” Truth be known, I was probably just slightly above unconsciously abashed to think that the 8 year old boys would make more money today than I will.

Once home I turn off the car and go to release Amy from her car seat. Usually she is helpful and almost leaping from the car. Instead her right arm points limply toward the windshield, a single tear streaks down her face, and she whimpers, “Noooah…”

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Recruitment Status

Talked to 2 out of 3 of my recruiters to hear “this vacation time. things are slow. just haven’t had a match yet. your skillset is strong. hang in there.”

I think I’ll tell the electric company to “hang in there.”

Heading out to get my University transcript and apply for 1 or 2 jobs in person.

ps. seems the garbage collection company is unhappy with me. no pickup today.