Reality Me

Usually my good friend and I are exceptional at predicting trends in technology. I completely missed this one! Your retail stores like Home Depot, Target etc go through such turnover that they are now require applicants to sit a terminal to apply. The interesting thing is this terminal simply goes to an Internet job site so you no longer have to get dressed to apply for minimum wage jobs because you can do it from the convenience of your house!

1 successful business meeting set for July 12th. So how do I live until the money starts coming?

This picture better shows the depth of the trench. I should have taken a picture of the stuck Jeep but my mind was a little focused on wenching it out. Ropes can be seen on the hood of the green car in the first picture. Click on the pictures for a larger view.  

You might be a redneck post sorta implied that I got the Jeep stuck in my own backyard. Well… I might have been driving it through a spot that I’ve planned to put a gray water discharge so there is an L shaped trench and two deep holes. The arrows show the intended path of the Jeep. The circles show the 4 axle deep holes that the 4 cooresponding wheels of the Jeep ended up in. Ooops. (really 2 holes and a trench) 

a) submit for CF position in Charlotte NC (requires text only version of resume)DONE

b) apply at Home DepotIn Process

c) Cold call real estate agents

d) deal craps at mock casino tonight (leave by 5:30) DONE

e) email friend regarding website on monthly fee

f) contact “barter” client for a brief meeting DONE

g) set meeting with “pay later” client DONE

h) email contract agency saying “I can do XML” DONE

i) Confirm casino time as 7:30pm DONE

j) Make payment arrangement with KPA DONE

k) write marketing blurb for self for websites

l) create banner ad for self for websites

m) write 30 second sales pitch for self

n) contact D.R. for BNI meeting DONE

o) drop Noah off at a friend’s house DONE

p) contact friend to let him know I have an AOL 9.0 disc for him DONE

A New Day!

Let’s start the day off with a PayPal donation link:

This Morning

I want to go back into the warm bed. My mind is racing because there is so much I need to be doing. It’s hard to be calm when it feels like all the walls are crumbling around you. I need to spend 2 hours at a temporary agency to get a job that won’t pay my bills and will get in the way of me making sales calls but .. oh I don’t know.

Tonight I deal craps at a mock casino although what I will get paid will probably just cover gas with a little let over.

I took Tommy to play D&D at his friend’s house. I really appreciate the guy that is DM’ing. He has gone out of his way to really help these kids have some normal social time and he is being extremely patient. Tommy is having a tough time staying under control but so far has not been unbearable. Despite my constant reeling Tommy back in the game is very fun and relaxing for me too. I needed the break.

I took Tommy to his doctor’s appointment and the doc took some time to let me know Tommy is feeling more depressed than usual because of my job searching. (there was a lot more to it than that but in summary – and it was good conversation). He recounted a story of a very successful friend of his that ended up as a cashier. Many people have suggested that I will end up in retail at minimum wage. Is this a polite way of telling me that I’m not as good as I think I am? They nicen it with “this market just doesn’t support you” but do they really mean “your fire burned out buddy! your horse died! Get off the traiL! Yer in the way!”

A couple of kind souls have donated today and I understand deeply what it means when a poet says something has “warmed his heart!” I have felt so terribly beat down recently that this act of kindness actually created a physical warmth inside my chest! I’m not ashamed to say I started to tear up.

Thank you!

Well now, I feel about worthless! The bastards They cut my power off anyway even though I’d negotiated for 5pm today! Talk about embarassing! All the kids say “Hey! What happened?” “Uh, well… yer Dad’s a bum and the world is angry with him and you are feeling the brunt of it.” I’m surprised we don’t hear all the time in the news that these meter people are being shot. I asked, “why didn’t you tell me before you did that?” and he replies “we don’t do that anymore.” I only lost about a half days work in job searching…. Again, when things are going poorly the system works twice as hard to get in the way.

Here’s a cool sounding job.. Note, this is for working in Oak Ridge, TN (that’s the place where the nuclear bomb was made and where the DoD still produces its nasty weapons) “WNP Fallout Specialist I”

MBNA called.

Looks like I’m going to spend the day talking to collectors. That’s the interesting thing.. when they want the most from you they require more of your time be spent with them instead of spent earning the money that they want.

I hate seeing hourglasses on computers! Why won’t anything move at my speed?!

So Sears, perhaps the most obnoxious of collectors, calls while I’m upstairs and I say “hang on. I need to put you on hold a sec.” That was so I could take the call downstairs. I place the call on hold and head downstairs to find that they’ve hung up. I guess they’ll call in another hour.

I think it’s ridiculous to have collectors ask that you hold for an operator but they won’t hold for you to discuss collection issues outside of your kids earshot.