Reality Me

Cat Stevens “Tea for the Tillerman”

Light the incense.

Don the headphones.

Turn up the music.

And get the groove on.

Do the dumb things

You gotta do.

Touch the puppet head!

What stats program do you use for blogging and what do you like about it? What do you dislike about it?

a) replace that horrific profile picture (made with cell phone) with something that doesn’t look quite so psychotic

b) submit resume to jobs in Sunday’s paper

c) apply to Home Depot

d) look at contract opportunities in Raleigh, Nashville, Asheville, Chattanooga, Altanta, Denver and Boulder

e) evaluation/bid of web application project

f) cook breakfast for boys DONE

g) followup email to client DONE

i) read a chapter in a book DONE

j) short game of D and D with the boys DONE

k) return phone call and email to recruiter regarding Raleigh NC job DONE

l) clear memory of phone and see if its performance changes DONE still bites

m) email resume to recruiter DONE

n) get ad in papers announcing Monday’s Asperger Support Group

o) cook lunch for the kids DONE

p) cook dinner DONE

A New Day!

Let’s start the day off with a PayPal donation link:

This Morning

I woke at 3:30 and should have pulled myself out of bed. Regretfully I slept until 7am. Fortunately I woke then because I had to get Tommy out of bed.

So once again I find myself questioning, “Why do I blog?” I began it as an anonymous outlet to vent; something cheaper than a shrink. But I found it had a life and refused to stay anonymous. Blogging is also fun and addictive! Do I use it to release too much emotional baggage? Should it be a technology report instead? In an irrational fit of anger or stress do I blurt out unreal hurtful feelings? My journals have always been magnets of negative feelings; best to get those out and keep the good feelings in! These questions arise because Tommy’s teacher has become a reader of Tommy’s blog (or a one time reader) and she is a nice person that tries hard with Tommy but I wonder (and will have to put aside some time to review the archives) if anything harsh was written. Our only frustrations with her have been in what appears a lack of communication. “How was Tommy’s day?” “We had a great day!” Meanwhile I’m hearing about Tommy swinging baseball bats at kids or setting off panic alarms in the main office. Now, that could be her style and in the big picture those incidents may not have been significant. We could also be spoiled by having such astounding communication from his 7th grade teacher that openly reported what was going on good or bad and frequently (almost daily) did it over the phone. She solicited our input and we accepted her suggestions. It could also be dictated by the administration that she minimize communication with the parents and our real beef is with the administration, not the teachers. The administration consistently fills our IEPs with what seems to be false promises or fails to provide for us some of the same accommodations that other more functional students than Tommy receive.

“Does blogging hurt?” So has this blog interfered with my finding a job? I think not. I think my efforts have not been strong enough. I have considered taking the blog down while I search for a job but really once on the Internet, always on the Internet. Thanks to The Wayback Machine and regular backups once you publish, it’s alway there! Have I offended anyone? Probably. My views are not always mainstream and I’m certain someone has become irrationally offended. If so, my apologises. I am sure it will happen again.

“Who reads this?” I originally was writing to myself. Then to my wife. Now I mostly write to my wife but I am happy that I have a somewhat regular readership and I am pondering ways to better write for them. Some of the readership I know and some I am surprised when I learn about their interest. I think having readers is exciting!

Overall a good day. My cell phone even turned cooperative for a bit. I promised myself some reading. I’m going to do that now.

A thunderstorm has rolled in. I should have had the top back on the Jeep. I’d kill for some materials to build a carport or garage. The sound of the rain is pleasant. Let it wash away the pains of the day.

Roll in rain,

to clear my brain

Dust be gone,

let me see again

Mists rise,

invigorate my soul

Fog of the morn,

run from my mind

With a glimpse,

of tomorrow’s bright sunshine

I love cooking dinner for my family! Particularly when dinner is breakfast. We cook 17 eggs to feed our family! I don’t think most families would comprehend buying that many much less preparing that many in one sitting. How about 2 gallons (7.5 liters) of milk every 1-2 days?

I feel like we are in a movie!

For concentration, the soundtrack from “Rushmore.” Brilliant film. Brilliant soundtrack by Mark Mothersbaugh (Devo)! Wow his credits rock!

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Decided just to pay the ticket despite my belief that in principle I was conned. Instead of wasting time drying downtown to pay it I will mail it. I write the check, fold it in half and “rip!” it tears. What is Murph trying to tell me here?! Is this a sign that I should appeal?

Ugh! Such a typical example of how everything turns into something more than it should be!

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Live and Learn, Karmically something has to turn! –me, 2004

I made my invoice but my software won’t print without crashing. I’m also running out of time to waste half a %^$#( day driving downtown to pay or appeal a parking ticket. If I don’t do it today things get nasty.