Stress and weariness got the better of me last night. I slept! I needed to put in 6 hours of work between midnight and 6am but I slept. At 6am I woke in a royal panick. Full out panic attack and lay in be helpless to move while I tried to refocus my thoughts, exercise controlled breathing and generally calm down to be in the moment.
Today is critical. I basically have to make a choice between finishing a project that may or may not result in a check. OR to visit some social services people to fill out paperwork all day in the hopes that they will help us somehow. We basically have to survive another week and a half on nothing. It will take about a week and a half to set up interviews and secure new work to hold me over until I can get a job.