Author: djuggler

A New Day!

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This Morning

* Got the kids up at 6 and I returned to bed until 6:30 then stayed up with them getting ready for school.

* Went to get hair cut. From there to the bank which on the way to I stopped at Autozone and poured 3 quarts of oil into the engine which ran straight out onto the pavement.

* Dropped car at Firezone for a $255 repair. then took their loaner car to the bank and home.

– Now off to phone calls

Yesterday

* Hellish day. Felt like throwing up many times. Had to decide between saying no to a job that I verbally said would not be a problem. I was taking it out of desperation but it would have me away from the family 5 days out of the week but only for 12 weeks. Doesn’t matter if I made the right decision or not. It’s done.

* Talked to father-in-law about the situation

* Talked to mother about the situation

* Took 7 yr old to boy scouts.

* Talked to mother on the phone about financial help.

* Relaxed at the tube. Woke a couple of times during the night.

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This Morning

* Woke at 4:30 and could have jumped from bed but didn’t allow myself to.

* Woke at 6, 6:17 (kids up), 6:30, 6:50 and 7 – finally got up

* 19 mth old awoke at 7:07 and I started warming the car in anticipation of her joining the car pool. Wife came up and got her (thank goodness! It was COLD outside).

* Ate some oatmeal, pondered the day, and read a book.

* Now need to check on the 19mth old.

Last Night

* Fixed dinner for the kids…rather gathered the kids for left over pizza and chicken pasta salad

* Called Dad to mention that the UPS should be picking up the damaged scooter. I wanted desperately to ask for help but didn’t know how and he just volunteered it. I guess my jokes were taken as begging.

* Got fired going and kids to bed and watched television with wife. Was going to stay up late or all night working. She said “you’re down for the night” and I was wired but ended up watching a movie from 11-1am “Hank’s Heros” or something. At 1am I was still wide awake but shaking slightly; I knew needed sleep.

Gear shift

5:00pm — whistle blows; no one cares about buying things or giving jobs at this point in the day. Time to change clothes and prepare dinner.

* Ran to the unemployment agency although I didn’t realize that was what I was doing. Got into their job search system. Confirmed that a self-employed person cannot collect unemployment 🙂

* 10 yr old found out that we are trying to get him out of home schooling and back into the school system; he is pissed!

“I’ve been up Shit Creek so long I can’t remember ever having a paddle. And my canoe is taking on water.”

* I’m supposed to start work in Nashville on Monday.

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This Morning

* Woke wide awake at 2am. Knew the fire needed wood but could not motivate myself to get fuel for the fire. Could not get out of bed to work. Went back to sleep.

* Woke wide awake at 4am but could not motivate myself to get wood or get out of bed. Went back to sleep.

* Woke at 6am and went back to sleep until 6:30 when I got the kids up. Went back to bed until 6:45 checked on kids. Went back to bed until 7. Put small twigs on coals and acheived flame. Took kids to school. The 10 yr old had been day dreaming (my fault for not being up there) and wasn’t coming outside so the 7 yr old and I left and picked up the car pool 7 yr old and return for the pissed of 10 yr old.

* Bought milk and my first TN Lottery Ticket 🙂

* Gave the 13 yr old his medicine and went back to bed at 7:50 to get up at 9:15 and refuel the fire.

This day is going to suck. I’ll have a phone call asking if I can be in Nashville on Monday. I am going to bath and suit up and run over to a state run employment agency today for some employment counciling. Need a haircut bad. Need to work on php. Need to call people and make sure things like cell phone aren’t going to be cut off. Need to work on finances badly. Need to get myself together.

Last Night

* Wife had a terrible headache. 13 yr old watched the history channel in our room with us. I massaged wife’s head and neck between her running to the bathroom to vomit. If we had insurance, I would have had her in the ER. If I’m out of town on a contract and this had happened, how would this household manage. We need to stay together to take care of each other.

* 13 yr old to bed at 11pm. I read from 11pm-midnight while periodically going upstairs to tell the 13 yr old “turn out the light” “get to sleep” and so on

* I need my family insured badly. Tonight I need to calculate exactly what I need to make to survive and go for that. I mean, if $14/hr does it shouldn’t I go for that?

* Craziness upstairs

* Cooked meatloaf for tomorrow and ordered pizza for tonight

* No real yelling at the kids today. A couple of stern voices and some cursing at the 13 yr old (will work on that next)

* Tired as all get out. Would kill for 20 minutes of peace to read by

* Interview over. Went too well. I really need a fulltime job with insurance and I want it in town. This is gonna kill me even if it is only 3 months.

Other developers make a decent living from their homes. What am I doing wrong?

* Kids are out of control. I must go watch them. Snack time anyway. Phone interview in 40 minutes.

* Worked on php site and made good progress but did not finish. bathed. dressed. had lunch. stoked fire. walked dogs. fed and watered dogs. Went to meeting about php site.

* meeting went well

* came home, changed into casual clothes, stoked fire, snack. Wife now going to sleep to take care of her migraine. I really need to get a decent job so she can see a doctor about those.

* Ah! Worked on php site some. Must make it purdy before 11. Must take meclizine. I will probably be offered the 3 mth contract on the phone today. Crap.

* Read some in Diaspora with the dictionary in my other hand. Taught the 7 yr old how to look up words in the dictionary.

* Checked the 10 yr old’s homework. She had done 2 problems from one section then the last 3 problems from the previous, easier section. She got it all straightened out and didn’t argue when I asked her not to erase the other work. Made sure both heads were combed and at least the 7yr old brushed and flossed.

* Drove kids to schoool. Man is it ever cold outside!

* Stopped by Pilot to pick up a free lottery ticket. Got inside and realised how ragged I must look. Haven’t bathed in days. Enjoyed the scene and listened to the chatter for a second and left. Today is Tennessee’s first lottery day.

* Returned home, added wood to the fire–smaller sticks, trying to bring up the temperature. Fixed breakfast and am settling in for work. My mind immediately begins to revolt.

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This Morning

* I awake at 5 but cannot rise. Get out of bed at 6:04 and wake the 10yr old so she can do the homework she conveniently neglected to mention over this 4 day weekend. I walk the dog, start coffee, wake the 7yr old boy and get logs for the fire.

* 19mth old wakes fully while I’m getting the 10yr old — of course this happens on the morning I need to be working but she goes back to sleep.

My previous marriage failed because I worked too much (that’s an oversimplification). Our lives are now falling apart because I don’t work enough. I can’t balance life and work.

Last Night

* The 13 yr old watched history channel until 11pm

* I worked until 11pm and the database still won’t accept new records! php/mysql sucks.

* Read some more in Diaspora then slept at 1am