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* Last night after running errands we returned and had the 7 year old’s 2 good friends in the neighborhood over for the night complete with royally burnt hamburgers. Enjoyed tv with the wife.

* This morning got up 8ish and got started sending the kids on admist breakfast.

* Now want to put my earrings back in. One hole has closed for sure and saddens me. I can’t find my earrings. They are somewhere in a box among all my other garbage. I’m torn anyway. I enjoy the jewerly but I know the inlaws would die, my folks would disapprove and its not the image I necessarily want to convey to the kids. So, a large piece of me says “grow up. Let that past die.” It’s strange how something so stupid could be a source of such conflict. Conflict may not be the right word. “Incompleteness” seems more correct. That in itself makes me think I’m projecting other pent up feelings and am using this as the outlet but I can’t quite grasp what it is that I’m feeling or seeking.

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* Gave up on css box design for website. Returning…

* Gave up on css box design for website. Returning to tabular format using ImageReady. Will return to css later.

* Time to run around with the family. Let’s go find ice!

* Upon returning I received a phone call saying I was accepted for an 11 month contract job in West TN. Yuck! That pulls me away from my family. I know that the wife will be driven crazy trying to get the kids to school and make appointments. I don’t care how badly we need the money, this feels wrong.

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* Went to sleep last night about 10:30 – awoken at midnight – woke at 6:21am – woke several times between 6:30 and 9. Finally got up at 9. No dizziness!!

* Immediately yelled at the 13 year old for my laziness. That was wrong. Proceeded to be grumpy with the kids then sorta got a grip on myself and brought the tone down. My stress should not be their stress.

* Cooked eggs as everyone ran out to play in the snow.

* 9:30 neighbor calls to see if I could walk their dog. They are still in the hospital doing a hip replacement. No problems.

* still majorly stressing over where the money will come from.

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* been to the bank and the store. signed up for on…

* been to the bank and the store. signed up for one of those cool new mini-creditcards for my bank visa. Has picture signature and magnetic strip and fits on your keychain. After bank was walmart for groceries. Ice coming made me concerned about the car insurance which is close to lapsing.

* returned home fighting desire to lie down which a power nap would probably help alot but I’d catch hell for it. So instead I’m wasting time with this: Strip Poker.

* oh. Called another headhunter and got that vacant response like “oh, who are you” except that it was “we’ve only got 2 things in. Can you do ASP? Or can you sys admin an as400?”

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So far this morning:

* Woke kids (after waking with the room spinning)–slept while they got ready

* Took kids to school

* Slept until my interview. I was getting dressed slowly to keep the room spinning at bay and the phone rang early so I rushed to answer the phone literally falling against walls and trying not to throw up. It was my wife reminding me about the phone interview. I ruded said “that hurt. don’t do that again.” and hung up. That was wrong. She had the best of intentions but I was in agony by the time I reached the phone. I know its probably psychosymatic related to stress but that still doesn’t mean the room didn’t take off like a jet plane when I ran to answer the phone.

* Phone interview was tough. They will make their decision next week.

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marketing out In what is certain to be a waste…

marketing out

In what is certain to be a wasted effort, I distributed marketing flyers to 4 or the 5 “dance” clubs in town. I figure no one else will touch them, why shouldn’t I try.

Without the plastic covering the back doors, the outside air flows through this room like wind whipping through a canyon.

I should work more but I’m going to sleep.